Un-Bear-A-Ble

Un-Bear-A-Ble Used in the wrong way and feeling like a useless bug on the ground...having faith and wearing a smile during hardships...was I an experiment in this crooked society? Seriously? Nostalgic, never-ending nights mounts the day of delight delicacies...what a major pity...but I'm ready for anything that lies ahead naturally - Bearing pain, dealing with thots of disdain insanity Eager to achieve goals in sunny rain, filling the gaps of my empty life frankly Anger is set aflame like fire to the firewood and I'm good in the hood hardly...I'm kindling in the flames my uncertainty and I'm igniting the sky like fireworks of gracious vitality Rapt in my bring-me-down rampages and you are unbearable to my mind - depart from my numb and dumb cranium if you can be the nice kind...allow me in your group for once in your lifetime...it's not a crime to have a socially epic time...and I just made overbearing rhyme - A sense of shame sweeps over my inner being suddenly...vivacious vibes and vibrant goosebumps make me bodyquake to the beat on fleek...twerking foolishly and whirling like a whirlwind of weird, crazy fun...laughing uncontrollably like I'm high off of life, popping pills of silly...you smoked me out like the cigarette of regret and you drank the champagne of shame unfortunately - Bear with me, my cuddly bear...just a hair, blanket me with cozy, warmth, and furry fantasies and realities...Hold me far away...hold me close today...scary scams haunt my internet...caught in the morbid, trolled net...beautifully wrecked up and hated because of my looks and my thoughts that are as endless as books that are in publication daily... Languishing when you tell me hideous terms in the dictionary...ill insult your insults and I can compliment on your components...so thankful, kinda grateful to have you in my life once and for all, but I must stay true to myself and believe that I can stand tall like the Bricked Wall before me... Envying you won't help me get through this all-aspects hurt and your mind is unbearably stubborn - it's like trying to feed a dog celery or it's like forcing a horse to cross an ocean...what the heavens and hells are you? Sorry for cursing softly and I will make it up to you truthfully! God, don't let me lose this round and I want to be not lost, but found; I figured out that You looked after me 24/7 - all along, not alone...my history is unknown to you and my future means so much to you, a treasure chest to find in the island of fascinating and adoring isolation ...reflect my pain, mirror the fibers of my grain, make all the uneven pieces of the puzzle pieces fit, it's hard to admit my uprisings and failings all the time or I'll end up throwing an un-bear-a-ble, fury-sparked fit