Turning It Over To Him

I want to be able to care for my child And maybe just maybe feel normal for a while I haven't felt emotionally right When I lose my patience my guard goes up and automatically I want to fight Why do I feel like I have to have the weight of all on my shoulders And to feel as if I should be able to move boulders I tell myself I have to do all And to do it better than any of you all To be precise and perfect in my ways That's my biggest downfall, I'm so set in my ways To be the best at everything I do I need to do it all for me Not just for everyone so they will be pleased I have to impress myself in life as well as everything I do To love myself like I do you To be a good person and show the real me Would get me on the path that I really need to be Stop thinking I owe everyone my soul Not to blab and act like a fool To my God above I pray you will help To help me be me and feel the love I once really felt So I ask you to give me grace,patience,and peace of mind To know when I come to you, you will tell me i'm in your line You have got me through all the hard times so far So keep me going by helping me get back my fire I can do this,I've been through many things some couldn't handle I want to live a normal life, once in a while take it as a gamble Be the woman I want to be with your guidance and loving ways I turn my life to you God for all of my hard dead set ways to guide me through the things to come So that I am victorious and can say that I have won