Traumatized

It keeps on playing in my head like a record put on repeat I'm failing to forget about it How hard can it be to just close my eyes And not see anything How hard can it be to just sit alone with my thoughts And not remember anything I'm traumatized A memory to keep for the rest of my life If only I had a way to forget I just wish to delete the memory And act like it never existed A memory that teats me apart every minute A memory never forgotten Oh Lord please take my soul Sunrise a rhythm of hope arise and hide my shadows Make me happy again Trauma!Trauma! Why can't you just leave me alone I don't need you in my life You slowly murdering me Please remove yourself Because it feels like I'm dead Deep inside I have nothing It's just a cover outside that makes me seem alive A mask for people to see I'M NOT HAPPY