To My Mum

I’m smashing windows and breaking glass I miss you and hate you for leaving me You should have fought death and won How could you just bow down to its thirst? Who am I supposed to call mom? Come back Come back now, Come back before my rage engulfs me to ashes. I have been trying to call you every day Then I remember you are gone Do you know the pain that you have left me in? If you left because I never said I love you I’m sorry I said I’m sorry so please come back How am I supposed to heal? I miss you I miss you so much I know you don’t miss me too I dream of you dying every night, your memories I have I wake up happy that it was a dream But it’s not a dream because you are gone. I’m mad at you for going and leaving me like this Are you happy that I’m in pain? So won’t you come back and tell me it’s a dream That you never died: that I never saw that coffin going down. Please mom, please tell me you are not dead They are lying to me are they not? Tell me you never left, please I feel like I’m the one who is dying The hurt is tearing my heart Will I wake up tomorrow? If I will, let me wake up from this nightmare. Let me see you by myside so that I tell you how much I love you