To Feel Safe

"It's been a while since i put pen to paper been a while since i had anything to say but i'm so full of hatred and i'm losing all my friends i'm thinking how much my life just sucks how i fight and claw up only to be knocked down blood apon my furrowed brow is it worth it to get up? or should i just stay on the ground? and i don't hear any voices it's just silent all around. Waiting to be saved cuz i sure as hell can't save myself just wanna feel safe but i can't see to find anyone else i'm trying to get saved but drinking this holy water doesn't seem to help and how i wanna feel safe but i can't seem to find anyone else. Been along time since i felt good enough or just plain good to be something a woman wants it's like i've got all the pieces of the puzzle but they won't line up. and it seems like no matter what i do all i feel is frustrated and stuck. Waiting to be saved cuz i sure as hell can't save myself just wanna feel safe but i can't see to find anyone else i'm trying to get saved but drinking this holy water doesn't seem to help and how i wanna feel safe but i can't seem to find anyone else."