This Love, Conflicting Pain

This has been an absolute journey and I have traveled it with and without you. There are days I have opened my eyes only to be blinded by sun light. As I walk through a darkened coveted desire I'm trying to hold on to you. Listening for the moments you gave to me, all the excitement and how quickly you take that feeling away. My innocence has left no imprint in the path that I walk, so please don't try to rescue me. My knees are bruised, my heart has turned grey, this is where my journey begins without you. What have I let this world become of me? The purity I once new. Hair brushed back in a braid down my back as I walk away my heart still yearns for you. Your love still knows how to make my heart suffer. And your plastered on my inner shell that holds me together, with tears and laughter, blinded by your love.