The Way I Am

As I fill my life with constant dread I have these crazy thoughts within my head Nothing seems to take this pain away Not even the alcohol I drink every day I try to live life one day at a time Trying to figure out just what’s on my mind Staying up and talking to friends Really just trying to make a mends Trying to live as long as I can I think that’s really life’s only plan As I set thinking and alone I really wonder whats going on What am I really supposed to do Who is it that I need to talk to Why does the pain in my heart hurt so bad How could I had loved someone I never had