The Rejection of a Friends Love

Why do I turn my friends away? How come I never call? Why is it that when they try to help, I try my hardest to fall? The confusion of my life, has left me in so much pain. When I think of a plan to succeed, I tell myself there is nothing to gain. I show people that I'm happy. But I'm really not. All the people who have said they loved me, in some way, I have fought. Why is it that I resist them? Why is it that I turn away? Why do I turn down their help, each and every day? There is a reason that I do this, why I stay a strayed. It's because when I really need them, they all run away.