The Hardest Gift

I didn’t give enough gifts I’ve said Never meaning this one Just those that showed small insight And let you know my heart Useful things, things of beauty plus words of truth and impact Emotion manifested in acts Simple gifts Tell me what you want I directed Be clear, don’t talk in ciphers I will do as you ask True, I actually thought, until Its full meaning came clear and focused leaving me Standing far, mostly silenced, in the dark By request To give freedom and space I’m learning Is beyond merely hard My soul unloads its pain, my heart wails no My brain screams fight, and I fail as Your heart finds gifts similar to those here for you Which now have nowhere to go and fill Empty space