The Dreamer Inside of Me

Sometimes I think that I have lost my way and have no direction. I try very hard to understand you,but yet how am I to do this when I do not understand me? I feel like a dreamer lost in my own reality. I put up a strong front, but inside I am as weak and Defenseless as a child crying for help with no where to run. People say they see me as being strong .Do they know me better than I know myself?. I'm running and screaming every night in my mind or is it in my dreams. busted up tic toc screaming from hell sweating as time is not on my side. My life suppose to be a gift from God,but I am so busted I cannot feel what is real for those demons are always attacking me. In my dreams I am falling into a deep coma sleep I have been screaming for days and calling you for help,but another day I'm still trapped. I hear voices but how could that be when only the face that I see is me. Run I say and never look back cause all along I was running from the fear of life scared of change that someday I would awake and find that there is still some Good left.. inside of me.