The Curse of Many To the Audience of One

Help me out here by leaving me alone here Yeah I'm over it, you could say that I'm over everything I just have one small problem I just need to figure out the spaces in mu mind vacant, a confusing mystery I'm clueless and it all seems so pointless, useless I'm drowning out all I know could it be a lie Nothing has really changed I've made, still known, pleas I just don't want to be alone yet contradictory I leave myself to silence Advice is my own worst enemy I just rely on myself and crushing sleep to help me forget though it's true I cannot My brain and heart constructed a statue out of memories and clay in the center of me Am I going crazy why deny it when I've shown it Am I useless or is it all in my head why deny it when I know it's true I can't let it go I still wish to hold on even though I told myself I would never return Somebody eradicate my death grip on this and throw me in violent seas to wake me up allow me to shake it out and let it go I can feel it in my heart but I just want to scream to the world This can't go on but the curse of the shadow curse of the ghost curse of the broken hearted curse of the illusionist curse of the hopeless romantic curse of the kid hanging from a tree prohibits me from living the life of the carefree just restrictions and conflictions no one else can see that I wear, that I bear the curse of many to the audience of one