The Break Up

In the beginning there was nothing but smiles, hugs & kisses and as my heart revealed every emotion that could be shown my tears flowed yet the love making was mind blowing. Recalling the ebony sister that once called me her boo,baby & love of her life, not expecting the hard break up without the knife. Sometimes i question myself am I ugly, do certain girls feel bad so they make me good and then when they see something better & they push me to the curve Bleeding internally because this is something i don't deserve. My hearts yearned for the presence of that beautiful girl but never got wanted & all I could think about were the kisses that were shared When I let you into my life I thought I was prepared Trying to meet your expectation resulting that i was physically and mentally impaired. My Dreams was too keep a strong relationship with some one that i truly trusted somebody has thrown a spear through it and let it get busted at the end of the day I finally realized that I wasn't loved I was being lusted. Falling to my knees and praying that the love of my life will brighten up my future climbing the highest mountain that we call reality but still no climax yet i tend to give up because their is no fun in this adventure. Sometimes its my level of sweetness that interferes I was told once that the heart was meant for love never for tears, but how will I turn this frown upside down if every woman I turn to doesn't meet the requirement of being my gift from above.