Tears of a Clown

Is it worth feeling when all you feel is bad? I have a friend who keeps me from getting mad. Sometimes it's better to just be numb, so you can be ready when the hurt comes. Only a small sip will settle me down, a few more and I feel like a clown. Don't mind the tears that fall from these eyes, many nights I just sit here and cry. JSergi *for a friend who had a problem with drinking today he is "clean" and happy.