Suicidal Thoughts

Suicidal thoughts often flashed across my mind. I might have lived and died million times. I searched for the way to reach suicidal point Short cut, long cut any cut to reach. But I couldn't get one So I just postponed it for an hour. My thoughts went on traveling too far But it hanged between If, that and this. What will happen after this? So I went on postponing For days, months and years. If I announce, I will be self imprisoned With charges of penalty and some punishment maybe, For keeping such thoughts with me. It's just illegal and burnt of shame just adds another one. If I bring into action and I am dead I will be just buried down dead with few tears shed. If alive after all these stunts A severe punishment on self And I may come into the notice of many Ashamed and chopped I will Be whoever sees me! It's as good as being buried alive. For time being everything stands Postponed. Though the topic is too harsh and rough, Based on reality. Such things happens when one looses control on self. Be in a light mood while reading this poem As you may also love And I request you to postponed If such thoughts you are keeping in your mind. Postpone it for sometime! Just see you may find another way out As some minute changes in our life Can bring a lot of difference in our thoughts I know its just easy to spell be positive Just postpone it for time being for you aren't going to loose anything As the life is too valuable and precious which can never be reverted back Once dead. Just wait and watch patiently. Sure a sun will rise in your way as it did for me too. ©ALL RIGHTS RESERVED BY GEETHA JAYAKUMAR 2014 Geetha Jayakumar.