Spoken Too Soon

Last night You were so cold to me It was as if you never told me You loved me As if we never shared anything at all You wouldn’t let me touch you You wouldn’t even look at me And when you did All I saw in your eyes was Disgust Distrust Simmering hate Or so it seemed I didn’t need you to speak Everything your eyes told me, made my knees go weak “What did I do?” I frantically plead You ignored me As if I never said a word I whispered “I love you” But my declaration fell on deaf ears For a second Just one split second I could see you feeling my pain But your sympathy quickly faded away You asked me to leave In you heart I knew you couldn’t possibly mean what you just said “I don’t love him” I said He doesn’t make me feel the way you do He never did Never will You just looked at me With an unreadable expression on your face With clouded eyes So I kept talking I told you it only happened once I only did it for closure For a sense of peace To close the door I left open for too long You opened your mouth to speak My stomach turned uneasily Confusion then hurt displayed on your face You finally said "I was only mad at you for breaking my favorite mixtape" I wish I could take back everything I just said Just as the rage filled your eyes The tears swiftly rolled down my cheeks Right before the curses fell from your lips I heard my mother say “Ashli, wake up…it’s six