Sometimes

Sometimes I do but usually I don't Sometimes I could but I usually won't This is the pattern my life has entailed I really should try but so often I've failed Scared of rejection I just cannot bear so why try at all, why should I care Sitting and watching my dreams pass me by confined in self doubting, all confidence dry A glimmer of hope but no spark will ignite I've thrown in the towel refusing to fight All gifts that God has given to me hide deep within for no one to see I'll keep in the slow lane and never advance leaving my life to fate and my future to chance