Somehow

Interest peaked through desire Suddenly exhaustion subsides The learning makes you feel higher The wake of realization obides Then nothing changes though tried The will can't apply what you know No new learning can provide The changes needed to grow You inevitably start to back slide Character defects reappear Weakness strips you of pride Adding more shame to your fear So you double down on effort Prayer and mental faculties Triple down on help, action, Trust and positive realities And foot tapping anxiously await Focusing attentions on the now And trust your arrival will be late Knowing grace will restore you somehow