Simply My Heart

With a heavy heart and a nervous touch I write to you With all the willpower I possess I continue this charade I feel heavier with each heartbeat Stronger and yet weaker, Unable to process that which weakens me so I know the inevitable approaches, That constructed world I pray for The one I hope and cry for I know its ever-growing anguish seems almost too much And then with a touch, With but a word I am yours again, Broken and happy Just a flutter of your eye lashers makes my heart skip Your breath like that of the world itself Sending shivers through me, a cooling warmth Adrenaline sets in and I care not All I want is you, all I care for is our little world Ignore all reality, basking in each other’s glory And then before it can even begin to gather to climax you vanish from me again, The waves of fear and anguish set in I am left as a crushed husk It is as though I have you and yet will never have you I fear it still, and yet I turn not away I turn to you, embrace the inevitable pain Basking in the euphoric glory when you are in my arms The feel of your breath The warmth of your skin The tingle as I brush you gently Drinking in all that you are, in total being I come to accept this now. If you are ever mine then it will be a miracle A joyous miracle, and yet still that shot in the dark That dark that is banished with your eyes I could fall into you, into lust, into ecstasy. Into purest joy. The light you bring into my life is more than I can take And yet I want it all for myself, I want to bask in it always, until life has its last breath I need not the sun, nor the moon, nor the stars. I have the purest light of them all. You. And to you, my dearest heart I cry one last tear, Breathe one last breath And then delve into you once more If only to experience that which breaks me more each day. Until you are mine, I will always be broken You can make me whole, you alone I wish for your happiness, but I am selfish As I believe you would be happiest with me.