Silent-Scream

It is asked what happens after death, what is your fate after final breath? I am cursed as one who knows, for I am now settled in repose. Although my life is no longer there, I still remain horribly aware. My body's functions are in past tenses, but I still retain all my senses. I was brought low by my lover’s toxin, and was not helped by failed digoxin. I knew I was well past my prime, when the doctor announced the time. Later, my mind was overcome with a chill, as the mortician brought out his drill. As much as I desired it to be a dream, the blade brought forth my silent scream. Then I was the star at my own wake, and my lover’s fake tears were hard to take. Oh, how I raged that it was not she, who laid there instead of me. Today I reside in my plot, where I remain while I rot. Now one of my greatest fears, is that I’ll remain beyond the years.