Self Abusive
damn
i just
relasped
and i
cant grasp
the concept
that i
let myself
go
going to
the point
where im
losin all
control
but i
cant hold
on
its the
same old
song
and ive
been singing
it
for far
too long
i cant
stay
strong
and its
upsetting
and im
betting
that i'll
never change
am i
better off
locked in
a cage
away from
the world
i'll contemplate
it
as i
twirl this
blunt
rolling a
fat one
to go
on a
hunt
to make
some money
im not
stupid
but i
act like
a dummy
and doing
dumb ****
but i
cant split
from myself
im stuck
with the
thoughts
in my
mind
and responsible
for my
health
drugs for
me
is like
water
to the
wicked witch
and its
gonna make
me melt
cuz i
felt it
once before
two or
three times
maybe four
and im
sure
im headed
for danger
trying to
break
into a
car
with a
metal hanger
so you
better have
an alarm
on your
ranger
cuz im
coming
to do
something
and youll
end up
with nothing
cuz i'll
have it
all
i hate
when i
take the
devils call
cuz i
know eventually
i will
fall
flat on
my face
and catch
a case
losing my
personal space
no good
time
for me
i just
need to
believe
that i
can stay
clean
it hurts
so much
i just
wanna scream
SPECTRUM 6 WRITTEN ON 5-1-2013
Copyright © David James | Year Posted 2013
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