Secret Letter To You Mother

I don't know why I bother to try even though I know, you'll never be satisfied. I'm not what you want, and I'm not what you need. but you're twisting and turning my reality. I'm lost in the shuffle, buried with my troubles. you're killing my emotions, and losing my trust. and you look at me with a sense of disgust this is my world, and you are my fear. I think things would be better, without you near. I'm losing myself and cowering down to you. you're words they are permanent to me, just like a tattoo. you're always right behind me, pushing me way to far. cut me open, see the pattern of my scars. all these people that think they're so tough. try being reminded that you're never good enough. you're killing me slowly, and I'm almost dead. I imagine you smile as you drift off to bed. this isn't right, this isn't fair. it's nothing, I don't expect you to care. I'll paint this world, with my list of regrets. I'll burn this city with my ashes and I'll forget that you weren't fair. and maybe I'll be saved from this horrid despair. I know who's right and I know who's wrong. but you'll figure it out, once I'm finally gone