Secret Feelings

Secret feelings, secret words, I feel these feelings, I hide them away, I have this need to be held close, yet nobody cares, I need to let go, but no, I have to be strong, Maybe I should just go away... I speak, I reach out, the door I always see shut on my face, I need to have my secret, sacred, hiding space, I feel ashamed, alone, my heart breaks in two, A hand to hold, to touch my face, to hold my chin up, look into my tear filled eyes, but I guess that's just a disgrace... A mom I am, a wife, secret words, secret fears, a stranger to ask me three meaningful words, "are you ok?" The truth I hide deep down inside, I have lost sacred people, too scared they were, I ask you now, why did you seek, only to disappear? Was the answer too much for you to bear? Secret words, visible tears, I now shed, my body shakes as I weep for my own pain, my life is over, please turn away, as I slowly disapate into the thin air, for I wish no more pain on anyone who looked into my eyes, and seen my empty soul...