Sanity

Can I please have my sanity back I know now what it is I lack The fortitude to stand up straight The courage needed to tempt my fate The disaster of my wandering mind When torment is all my thoughts can find Regret is the emotion that now flows Even though a smile is all that shows No more tears shall ever leave my eyes Not when all they see are lies How can I love when I cannot trust How can I be happy when I only lust Forget it all, this pain inside Remembering the one time that I cried Bring to the front my deepest fear Always thinking the choice was clear Never understanding the inner me Never knowing how I should be Seems I've forgotten what I've become I've lost sight of where I'm from This is the existence that I chose The pages of my life will soon close Nothing seems to matter now Forever regretting this somehow I don't know why I feel this way This is not how I desire to end the day My whole life has been chaotic I am certain I've become neurotic For all that I am, I am damned For all that I have, I've been scammed I need someone to help free me of this feeling After all, it is my heart that you've been stealing