Salieri Soliloquy

You give me the desire a love for composing word symphonies yet you give me the cross of mediocrity to bear day by day to know there are others who are prodigies and I must hear the thunderous applause while at best I get the praise of those who seek to console my dying soul I must eat my heart alive while the words burn inside demanding expression soul confession unborn masterpiece extrication I fall to my knees and plead While I beat my chest in fervent heat "Bless me...Bless me... Make me like him Make me like her Make me more than all of these Make me the best a word genius For this love of words will not set me free Till it is MY name that they chant My name on their tongues My name branded on their minds the Maestro of Word symphonies Oh, Let it be ME, ME! BLESS ME!" Yet... day after day night after night and in my dreams I see, I see.... I see them take their bows I see their work showcased praised immortalized while I? I sit at my desk and try once more to write to...WRITE the sublime.... Eileen The movie Amadeus rocked my to the core. "In it, Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart was killed by his jealous rival, the court composer Antonio Salieri. Salieri cleverly took advantage of Mozart's fondness for drink, his financial crisis, and his obsession with pleasing his deceased father, and tricked Mozart into working himself to death." Murry Abraham did a wonderful job of portraying Salieri. There is a scene where he argues with God about the wonderful musical talent he has gifted Mozart, who seems undeserving to him, while HE has to live with mediocrity in musical talent. I can relate. I LOVE poetry. It is my life, and yet...I have to watch as others write so effortlessly and reach the pinnacle of fame. It is hard to do. :( Some days are better than others. On the good days, I'm happy that I can write a poem now and again. On the bad days....I want to cry for not being another Shakespeare....or Donne, or Dickinson, or Gibran, or Rumi, or....and the list is endless.