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Below is the poem entitled Remorseful which was written by poet Laura Mckenzie. Please feel free to comment on this poem. However, please remember, PoetrySoup is a place of encouragement and growth.

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Should I be filled with regret?
When I did what I thought was my best?
Or did I? 
Gosh to think how could I have hurt her so 
Did I do right by you, I know there were times you were disappointed in me 
Oh how I wished you weren't 
I felt the hatred for myself burning through my skin and peeling away the layers 
I didn't need yours on top of it
I know I may have missed those meetings at the school 
I just couldn't bring myself to face myself
And those women with their narrow minded opinions 
Those damn clicks I just wanted no part of
 God I hated them for making me feel I wasn't good enough 
But Now I realize I let me feel uncomfortable in my own skin
God I would sit at home and feel like death rolling in my own crap 
Justifying my behavior and knowing I was a failure to my little girl
I was filled with a paralyzing anxiety just being around people made me shrivel up 
Hidden in the confines of the house shaking with worry 
And to think I had the greatest gift bestowed to me, a child that was mine 
Yes all mine and it was my job to raise her up 
But I couldn't see past the dark haze that trapped me so 
I let this God forsaking disease crush my ability to be there for my child 
I sat back and watched someone else do what I should have 
And now this pitiful woman has a heavy heart she carries forever
Knowing I lost my daughters respect and my treasure

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  1. Date: 8/9/2013 7:34:00 PM
    I sense a debilitating depression behind the poem, it is neatly expressed in your words. I love the way you articulate it in your poem. Dalila

  1. Date: 8/8/2013 6:05:00 PM
    You expressed the shame of regret and human frailty very well.

  1. Date: 8/8/2013 3:03:00 AM
    - Laura, deep and slightly sad thoughts ... but skillfully written! - Have a nice day. - oxox / / Anne-Lise :)

  1. Date: 8/7/2013 4:38:00 PM
    heartfelt and heartbreaking write, Laura

  1. Date: 8/7/2013 9:15:00 AM
    An entrancing, yet sad self-reflection. This was strongly written. Respect to you for this.