Relive

i look death in the face going what to do it is like why are you here are you here to end my life. i don't understand why you are here but go away are you going to go away when you end my life you make me live and live over and over again but why are you doing this it is like i look at people different they look at me different i think about death all the time think of what is it like but it just makes me cry i don't want to go because of my family and friends but it don't make sense why am i the only one that looks straight out of my eyes like no one cares i look at thing different then other people many things make me upset why do you make me flashback why do i have these feelings now tell me now when i flash back you make me relive like there is something i missed but death go away i want to live normal and not a slave that relives things