Raising Trained

Some have said I'm a beautiful mess, but I see the word beautiful first, The mess was just something I had to endure, it's been with me since birth, As a child I would escape the environment I was in, I would intentionally get lost in books, it held my heart to live, Ignorance is bliss was a must, it was my only escape, I was the quiet nerd who really had nothing to say, I went with the flow, I never interrupted, I was disciplined and trained, But as time went on my heart would explode, and I would shock people with what I would say, Outside I was walking with you, but inside was contained, I didn't have the courage to speak up, because this was how I was trained.