Placing You First

I placed you first, Even though you knew not. For it was better done than said; That it was truly from my heart. And so I gave them up I gave it all up for good Left my mind heated from thoughts As I lain every night to sleep Thoughts so deep, I could not understand; Whether I was going mad, When I took that spit for you, Or it was just love, That I had for you. My granny would not forgive me For I left his funeral so early To get you that ice cream Else you would scream Wishing to wake up and say, "What a dream!" NO! not a dream, it's a nightmare. One that i cannot bear to share. I pray you leave me now My heart you wrecked Lies in ruins To think that place you had, but how. I placed you first Not because I knew you first I placed you first Because you were the best And now I rest my words For I now weep Good-bye my sweet Or may I say, my CURSE!