Pain I'Ve Endured

I have been lied to, cheated on, and verbally abused, I have been heartbroken and used. I have been second best when I thought I was first, Goes to show you how little you're worth. I have been attacked for no reason by another woman, Because she was having sex with my man. I felt like a fool for giving my whole heart, To someone who only ripped it apart. Mentally I'm damaged beyond repair, Emotionally scarred from thinking they cared. I had many tell me what they thought I wanted to hear to keep me around, When I was at my lowest point they were the ones kicking me deeper into the ground. I was depressed and felt all alone, Still don't understand how people are cruel the reasons are still unknown. The memories are still tainted til this day, Wish all of the anger would go away. I have a lot of issues I'm trying to work through, People analyze me and criticize me when they don't even have a clue. Doesn't matter how much you care about someone it's never enough, Because they just used you as a stepping stone because they're life was tough. Whatever they can get by with, they will do, Assuring you that they loved you. At times I second guess what is real, Because that's the only way I know how to feel. It left me feeling hopeless, like what's the point, My whole body was hurting even my joints. I was always the only one giving, While they were steadily taking. Just never understood how I could be treated this way, That's why the past interferes with my present til this day. May 10, 2014 ~The One and Only~