Only I Stay

I am so tired of being treated like a fool i always hear you say that u want to leave at times am just ready to say go am done i left everything for you , and yet i get nothing. Am just so tired of everything!!! I get so sad i cry at times when i take a shower i just sit there let the water run down my skin think of the past and remember the good things that happened to me i miss them so much!!! I dont get to see my family if i even talk to my mom i hear what did you tell her dont tell her about our relationship !!! i get so tired of you my life is so hard like living in the inferno !!! I wish i was back in my own life to make my decisions not have a heartless guy do it! The only thing i want is just to be able to be myself i hate having to pretend to do everything right i make mistakes i want to say what i want when i want to i just want to be me Cant u understand!! My life wasnt all that perfect but back in the day i had fun was able to be myself !! But i just want respect someone to let me be me !! why must you tell me what to do?? You dont even trust me to go to the store by myself!!!! i hate you at times but am just so hurt that life is this way how did i let this happen !! How do i change life as we know it ??? sometimes i wish i was departured from you why do u tell me that you say you dont even love your own son You know how that makes me feel !!!?? You dont because you dont care !!