One Man Drinking Games

What would I be without you... Friends What would I be without you... Friends What would I be without you...friends I thought it would be funny to keep you hanging in suspense at my expense to pay the bill I have built of silence for I am a man of few words though I speak in riddles and puzzles and I speak like a boring manual set to put one to sleep Please bear with me and just hear me out For all I wish is to say thank you I appreciate you For where would I be if I hadn't seen those distant faces in the passing hallways those distant faces in the gray classrooms Just another stranger with a scowl upon my face for disappointment and lack of words to say For where would I be if I hadn't met you my close friends of childhood the people I spent endless days creating clubs and groups just enjoying being kids and playgrounds Just another lonely kid sitting by myself staring at my feet as I swing so sad in a broken swing set For where would I be if I hadn't met those friends in junior high the trouble we would get into the stupid things we did to get attention our great laughs and dumb things we say singing our way down an empty road on a warm, summer's afternoon I couldn't have asked for a better day For where would I be if it wasn't for the friends in high school that cared so much cared for me enough to stomach me in my darkest days put up with my complaining and indifferent ways put up with my indecisions and explosive attitude who were there for me who stood beside me who gave me a reason to smile For where would I be if it wasnt for the past loved ones the ones I grew crazy to adore the ones I chased day after day afraid they wouldnt take me as I am afraid someone else would steal them afraid I wasn't good enough the ones I dared to impress the ones I dared to confess Maybe I wouldn't have tried at all maybe I would've never shed a single tear maybe I would've never knew what love meant maybe I wouldn't have the heart I have today Maybe I just wouldn't be myself if I didn't have angels sent to save... So here I play my one man drinking games for I have lost a lot of friends along the way some to negligence some to silence some to fall-outs and stupid fights some to moving away some to moving on some to just growing older some to just growing tired of me some to hating me cause I may despise them right back but still I hope you remember me for I still remember you and all I can say is thank you for getting to know me for allowing me to know you I'm not perfect and never have been sometimes I have failed to be the perfect friend but I still tried nonetheless And I apologize if I was never there I apologize if I grew older and none too wiser I apologize if I sold my voice to silence and never bothered to speak again for I speak to you now to say I'm sorry and to thank you just the same