Once More Or Once Last

One thing I've learned about people is how fast they come and go, how you can trust them all you want and love them and promise each other never to leave one another alone.Yet they always leave, always alone silently crying and wishing they would come back to love one another again, being gone for so long and they do this over and over again , its a cycle, you get used to being alone , being sad, it just becomes you , you make a new love and again they leave , you "STOP FEELING". Thinking what's the point if all of this just keeps happening over and over again. You found a new love soon after you said those words . "DRUGS" come first drinks come last never ever even opening your eyes to what you have power and money over fear and unity "GUTS" over fear . You give yourself "ONLY" yourself credit for what you've had help with God why must guts rule over fear? Your first instinct is actually your last you say your going to leave yet your still here? Why? Because you think you can love us then hurt us again with your twisted daggers ! YOUR GUTS HAVE MURDERED YOUR FEAR and a coward has taken your heart away and poisoned it with black blood you MONSTER. It was long ago not that it really meant anything to anyone but it was the days i died the days i cried the days i lied, being okay and thinking your okay are two different things wanting to die and being dead are many different things. My depression never went away i always knew it was their like a faint memory you tried to recall I'm better now i feel great i have those days but who don't.