Once

Treason How could it be I have left you and you have left astray I have wondered where do I belong WHere is my song where is the sonnet which flows freely from my veins I have wanted I don't know where it is I just know it exists I am told I am going to live life lonely Desperate and horny I am not sure I have no idea about the future I just know that it is something wonderful, could be... true enough, awesome yes I am touched by an angel And I pause. Fleeting emotions I think of you once more. Where have you been all my life... I wonder I think of you once more. I slumber There was once a child in me Now it is dead I think of you once more. Don't make me sad This treasonous thought process it betrays my emotions It lays bare all the reasons I share and I care enough to make you want to stare but the reason is justified and I not am plain to see and I lie..I like to and live and learn and LIE I am free. Free from the pain of the suffering heart I have none to give anymore. Don't start I am telling you the truth It is hidden for a reason Broken for treason Caused by a plague of mankind I have no cause to salute you I mock you, just shoot you Learn Leave me like a solid I am stolidly walking into a fire I was once a man Once also a child Now I am nothing I am void Dreadnaught This is I like a volunteer I let my self go unspoken and learn to give freely to others my verse I cry out for help but nobody answers. I curse Or is it I am cursed so sullenly Distant...and maybe suddenly. I was told it was me that was cursed and not justly I was told it was me that was cursed...thusly cringe I do I think of nothing more to say I can't bare witness to this day I think of nothing more to say I can't think I pause I ponder the repercussions of how my world is bent and turned by the will of a person that once has learned curse ...how could you take it back I beg you Plead you, deplore you I can't live like this I adore you...honestly. Lift the veil and bend the tree Christened and listened I once was missing from the ether and devil was there...and all the other red herrings were staring and sharing the wild winds were missing the curse was a glisten; I think there were angels sitting on evenings full of the moon and the nights sky was blind from the crazy ...curse me I'm just simply so lazy. lackadaisical ...musical and ever so truthful I cringe at the thought of the one that has made you I wonder where you've been that has something so hurt you. You're broken inside like a knife gone missing...kissing your heart forever this instant...it holds. I suspect you are pride broken I neglect to erect the emotionless soft spoken misery. I think you see me. I know You are the curse and I am the chosen one. I have forgotten it not I am enlightened> The end. Or so I thought. I'm frightened.