No You To Hold Onto

I reach for you, in bed, in the car, at the table, on the couch and while walking, but, there's no you to hold onto. Only in dreams can I reach out and touch you, hold you, feel you for as long as I need to. It's such a shame to have had no reservations about touching each other when we were together. It was all so natural, so effortless, so fulfilling. That's why I miss holding you so much. Will I ever find anyone else who will love me as naturally as you did? I scares me to think I won't. But, only God in His infinite wisdom knows the answer to my questions now. And I've been so unfaithful to Him, so impatient. He cares always for me and I care always for you wherever you are, however you feel for forever.