No Kidding

I was not kidding when I told you that I loved you for so long I was not kidding when I told you that I cared for you So annoying – love songs stick to my brain like glue on paper So annoying – hate songs lick at my feet like a dog on a leash…what’s worse is that you looked in my direction…you are a banger and a hater and a prostitute that goes to parties everyday You made my day…with a sarcastic tone with it I’m done dealing with you and your friend’s **** I was not kidding… You better stop bullying me… I’m NOT kidding… You better cease from killing me… With your words so dark Taking responsibility as if God told me to build an ark Like Noah and his animals, rocking the boat Rumor has it that you are as fat as a feathery coat Time unwinds Close the blinds I want you to hide Let peace abide In my heart, oh Lord… You struck a chord In me…in me…out of me…out of me… I’m so inward, not outward I’m, well, frankly awkward No where to flee Confused – let me be Free me why don’t you? Keep talking without a single clue That I hate you…and then I love you… It makes no sense whatsoever I’ll dismiss it like whatever At least I have fans that like my work of art Because these words are straight from my heart The hue of gray smothers me Hovers around thee And, wow, how you move Just show me how to groove I wanna be like you, sister I’m not a good enough writer…as bothersome as a blister No kidding…I want to be better than me But, how…when I am what I am and that’s the answer I SEEK possibly I hang on After the break of dawn I don’t care I don’t care I don’t care If the pain of peer pressure comes to haunt me Taunt me… Bully me… Doors will open Doors will close I already know the rules at school But, hell, do I love it so much – the golden rule: Respect others and yourself Cut it out Cut it out And hang it on my wall On my wall On my wall I’m angry No longer sucking on the positivity Because negativity is my last name I’m still made as a human being so lame Yet, no one in this world will ever know Just how much pain I’ve gone through, you know? I talk, I think, I feel, I taste… Drool drips from my mouth like toothpaste I never wanted to face reality ever…ever… Control me from hurting me… Because I know damn well no one cares End me. End me. Begin me… Begin me. Run me over You dazzling clover Because I obviously don’t give a damn If I act like Dr. Seuss’s characters in Sam I Am Or whatever it’s called The point is… I’m pissed off…rawr…I’m in awe Surprised…to welcome bliss In my life In my life In…my…difficult, yet easy life The pain won’t go away Not today…not today NO ONE CARES IF I GET INJURED BY I Because I see the eye of Horus everywhere I go, Said I…I don’t want to die. No kidding, I feel hopeless, yet so filled with hope I feel joyless, yet felt on by joy Bemused…abused… Shut up…that’s what’s up I’m not kidding I walk away…I laugh and it’s unremitting