My Suicidal Refuge

The pain in my chest wont stop pounding. My salty tears wont cease to flow from my blue eyes. I get cut by a razor every time some one tells me the truth. Yet here I am, once again seeking refuge in your arms. It's crazy to think I keep running back to you. Maybe every one is right and I am just a child. Could they be right about me and you? I hope for my heart they are not. They say your a liar, you wont leave her. Especially for me they say, and I can tell what they mean. I'm no where near as good as her. I just hope you can see that I would give anything to you. The pain and tears would all be worth it in the end. If I could only win you over. Battle scars left on my pale skin wouldn't matter, if you were there to kiss them. This isn't some fairy tale, I can read from a book. Its dirty reality where I'm on the front line. How I wish I could be the one, who you belonged to. Instead here I am fighting behind the scene for your love.