My Heart

I ran cross my heart today and realize how different I have become because it told me that maybe I’ve changed for the better and with the weather so off maybe I am.... Excuses Just a little set back that’s all, Maybe. Then Fear made a comment, “Don’t fall you may not get up. I may just stop what you accomplished so far.” Life stated, “I can be hard and at times seem like I don’t care about you, well....I don’t. But you shouldn’t worry about fear.” I’m scared fear could be my weakness. My Heart stated, “It’s a strain.” I feel like I’m not focused and my heart still beats so strong, but for how long? My Heart told me, “I’m holding on but can’t fight the tears alone….” I snap back into reality, but reality bothers me. My thoughts wondered, taking wide long steps away from what I believe in. I thought all my thoughts were positive. I’m a little detached from the truth, only sometimes. Don’t judge me. I know that I’m stronger than I look, it took years of tears to become this way and has always, it’s never perfect. That’s Life because we have to learn. Don’t we? Life is a teacher and what about my heart, I feel different. The truth... Lyrically… I’ve hurt people when I didn’t mean to and the tears still burn. How much have I learned? My apology is deep from My Heart what I feel is a part of who I am, and who I am, I don’t understand. My heart knows the truth of me and this is my public apology to those who crossed my path and the hearts that I touched, negatively. Not meaning to be such a burden. The guilt is real, causing my heart to cry out in pain, bringing me to my knees. Some people wish to be a part of another race, born in a particlar place, and simple enough FAME. I wish I could be perfect and no it’s not an excuse. My heart speaks the truth about me but now I see Perfect… will never be me.