My First Son

You just came into this world cold and bleak of your father/ But you made my life mean even more ever since your sister my baby daughter/ You make life upon soul as a man out in the desert that needs water/ I'm a full-time daddy now so there is no room for my mistekes to let me faulter/ I know I ain't the best daddy in the world son but I will do my best I know alcohol can bring me down but son you just being born makes me want out this mess/ I want something better for you than me when you are ready to leave daddy's little nest/ I sometimes just sit here and watch your sweet little stomach go up and down with every breath/ You are so innocent and I am so guilty of being a sinner/ I'm working on being a saint but how can I when all I do is let alchol be my only winner/ My addiction gets thicker as my liver and kidney's continue to get thinner/ I just want to be able to support you son with clothing, a home and an every night dinner/ I love you son, I really do/ So I must help myself past these self-made lies and do what is right and true/ I'm still an alcoholic and addict in a crazy rez life game where I always seem to lose/ But with your birth I can start anew/ I got big time father responsibilities now to where it will forever affect the choices that I choose/ You my first and only son/ As of now your my only one/ I look forward to our times of hardship and the times when we have fun/ I was at a slow walking pace but because of your birth it got my mind on the run/ In LOVE you NOW and FOREVER because your My First Son.