My Cue To Fall Apart

The journey home seemed endless People were still smiling I wondered how and why My broken heart Was seeping out of me Such was the pain I couldn't cry I occupied myself To numb out the first few hours Somehow waiting for my cue I cleaned the house Until my hands bled And bruised black and blue The stinging seemed to help I could see this pain It felt real Everything else Was my body going into shock This I couldn't feel Still the birds were singing The sky going about its business Even today it wouldn't be grey The world niggled me Like an excited child I just wanted it to go away The wait seemed constant You know its coming But not sure when it will start My heart is broken And I am just waiting For my cue to fall apart