My Bleeding Hurt

I am a paramedic I shun the word panic Yet I dread each frantic call But I must feel nothing at all Amid all the commotion Ardent to push the mission Anxious to reach the site Determined to save a life Composed as if unfeeling Expecting the worst, yet still hoping Feeling for a victim I do not know Worried, but I would never show A child plunged on the ground A father bloodied all around A mother beaten into a pulp A brother stabbed by the mob I bleed while they bleed I cringed when they plead I die when they ceased to be It felt like family, it felt like me Eager to bring first aid Animated to see a life saved Agitated to see death in the face Raw emotions I must embrace At the base, the feeling stays I never fail to say a little prayer For all the pain that I can still feel For all that I have seen remains still I am a paramedic I cannot do any magic So I made a frantic call To calm my bleeding soul I need to relieve my pain To ease the nerve in my vein Please, hear what I want to say Help me keep my emotions at bay.