Mr Sadist

God gave me life a family and a smile but after he took my dad didn't know why maybe it was part of his plan but it broke my heart so the smile had to fly then theft, violence and lie took my entire life Next i guess is the dealine I've been beaten to death but i survived Mum says i'm a deadman others says tomorrow i'll die For real every night i pray to jesus but every time i act like the demon i hurt my family and friends Worst! i hurt my own self in a mirror i can't recognise myself all i see is a dark man, with a dark past with a dak future, with a bad pass i don't blame any body i'm the architect of my own defeat i think i want to die now while writting this maybe i'll already be dead when you'll be reading this oh! suicide! suicide! come take me NO! Jesus is Alive, Alleluha!!