Mothers Love

Deep down i just want to kill her, But then i realize how much i love her, I don't know why i do, For she shows me no love what so ever, She's so selfish she has never cared, Grooming herself, As i play dead, But it isn't a game, At least not to me, The only time I'm safe is in my dreams, I cant go on this way, I might as well put myself to sleep, As i slowly drift away, I think of the times, when she loved me, When she tucked me in at night, When she held me close and tight, But those days are no more, And thats for sure,