Missing You

I want to say I'm sorry, I'm sick of all the questions, My heart is tearing in two, because I miss you, I'm sorry for what I said, I hate all these unanswered questions, that I never told you, I'm sick of all the lies I spread, even though none were about you. I want to say I'm sorry, I'm missing you so much, this loss I must now endure, and as I write this poem, I write all my feelings down, I'm not crying, I never have, must I must say just one thing, if I can't say anything else, I love you, and always have. I want to say I'm sorry, my dearest great-grandma, how can somebody so young as me, possibly handle this loss? I'm only twelve years old, well, I'm almost thirteen, but still I'm young not old. I don't know how to handle this, I don't know what to do, I've never cried before in memory, but that doesn't mean I don't feel sad. I love you Nana!