Loving Monsters

I wake to comfort in disdain A monster I don’t want to tame Incentive aided by her name The spiteful creature known as shame All the pleasure I will seek And all the horror I will wreak The chill of knowing all too well I want my life to become hell The burning ways I seek to end This underlying competence For seeking a final way to break The curse that took my breath away My spirit trembling at my feet In silence underneath its sheet The monster I was to defeat Became the creature known as me With all the endings I create And all the knowledge I retake I can’t replace the name engraved In my heart, I take this to my grave She’s a monster, but in her eyes I too am a creature in disguise And beneath the thousand burning lies I will love this creature until I die