Loving

Loving Will the pain ever stop? Probably not, although I wish it would. Why me? Of all people this had to happen to. Why to the one who did not deserve it. Or did I? Maybe I did. Maybe not. Who knows? I don't. I wouldn't wish this pain on my worst enemy. Of rejection. The pain I have in my heart, I can not hide. It is something that shows no matter what. It glows as bright as a star, If not brighter. Why does stuff like this always happen to me? Am I evil, Yes, No? But still I hate my life, I hate myself. I even hate him. I know I shouldn't. Even though I hate him, I love him with all my heart.