The rain pelts down my window panes
Your face in my memory evokes emotional pain
and I wonder if you ever regret the things you do
make me cry
WORRY WHETHER OR NOT YOU’D OVERDOSE IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT AND DIE
I HAD SO MANY COUNTLESS SLEEPLESS NIGHTS…….
You had me walking around like a shaky zombie, close to an an attack of anxieties.
You took my kindness
you took it like a selfish thief in the night
You stroked my hair and gave me promises of a relationship that would someday be right
But perfect was nothing further from it.
I gave you my virginity, my essence of innocence and
YOU MADE ME HURT
YOU MADE ME SICK
I'll never forget the time you slapped me across the face
The sting was numbed from your inebriated laughter
You tore me apart with your verbal wolverine clawed insults
Your tongue has left whip like scars on MY HEART
You threatened me with suicidal tendencies
To keep your addictive behaviour a secret
UNWILLING TO SEEK HELP
YOU POISONED YOURSELF WITH DRUGS MEANT TO HELP THOSE SUFFERING FROM ILLNESSES THAT ARE CANCEROUS
You chased away the love of my friends and my families
You punched a hole through your sister's door, so frustrated and blinded by
the drug's destructive withdrawals
You felt like your skeleton was ripping from your skin's molecules
You were monstrous.
Stole away my confidence, and shut down the sound of my voice
Luckily I found my way back to sanity
my addiction was loving you, when you were calamitous and noxious