Lost Within

Today I realized there is no such thing as escaping from the pain you have caused And deep inside I want to run and hide Because I would rather be lost withing than feel my heart breaking Sometimes I wonder how many more steps I can take Without really breathing Inside the walls are closing Like they want me to suffocate There is so much I've sacrificed just forgiving again and again Inside I am feeling empty Pretending like you never hurt me And it seems like I’ve got no choice But to let you back into my life since you’re the sister of my husband I'm forced to play nice Cause I know I am stuck with this misery and strife I know that freedom from this prison is so far away Like the fading memories of all my yesterdays I am looking for a motive to release this pain But my thoughts keep rolling Making the tears come down like rain And I am afraid to trust because of the pain you caused me It’s like I am locked up in my own prison Cause I still feel my heart breaking Sometimes I wonder How many more steps I can go before I lose all my control Without really breathing I have sacrificed so much just forgiving Pretending like you never hurt me Forced to accept the things I can’t change When I know deep inside it could happen again Tonight I realized there is no such thing as escaping The pain you have caused the only relief is gone like the end of this song