Loneliness

My friends around me and on the phone, I’m in a crowed yet still, I’m all alone. No time to relax nor money to burn, Yet still on my friends, I spend the money that I earn. Don’t get me wrong, I do not complain, Company I have, not wanting more to gain. Yet despite all the company, Friend or Foe, I fear what I’m really after, is not to feel so alone. No Matter what I do or who I have around, Without that someone special, Loneliness is all I’ve found. Many have been tried to take that place, Non have been able to fill that space. All that have come before you now, Have lied and cheated, destroying their vow. I feel at peace when you are near, But you don’t want me, my biggest fear. Why I keep trying to win your heart, I really don know, I hope I don’t go to far. I try to forget how I feel about you, But there you are, in my thoughts, and dreams too. Without conscious thought or knowing my deed, I may conspire to something, that makes my heart bleed. Then, in floods the memory’s of past heart ache, Feeling alone for the rest of my days, I guess that’s my fate. I don’t deserve to be happy, that much is clear, Destined to live out my life, Living my biggest fear.