Living This Lie

People seem to hide their problems for a moment I need some time on my own to kneel down and repent Can’t wait till it’s all over, when this jealousy fades away For now, let the sorrowful rain shower upon me this sun-shining day I’m very lonely in my own skin and I have nowhere to go So sorry for feeling the way I feel…I just want you to know That I will be alright, as long as I have someone by my side Catch my tears before they collide upon the cold floor…in the shadows, I hide Nothing seems right anymore – I guess I am worthless to you I need some motivation and some confidence along the way Can’t stand dealing with me right now, but I’ll live with what I’m going through No one sees me or mirrors my pain…God, just take it all away Is there hope to find or am I the one, growing blind? I feel like a loser when I find myself being left behind I know, you don’t have to tell me – I was always meant to be a failure from the start Born to be a winner in spirit, but I’ve lost it all…my faith towards you was my favorite type of art I need to smile and laugh some, but somebody got to give me some love I just don’t know what to do, living this lie that is below or above Acknowledge the words I utter and graze in your own maze People tell me, “Don’t worry…you’re just going through a tough phase” How come God’s timing isn’t the same as ours? Sorry to question You so The thoughts in my head are bewildering…wishing for Your gracious glow I light up like a computer screen would, but there’s nothing to stare at Just a worn-out mat, getting stepped on several times by heartless individuals…growing independent like a black cat