Life Unfair

Recently it has gotten so much harder for me to smile, at least truthfully And I find it harder to enjoy life passing me by, with all of my problems To make things worst for me, I cannot seem to focus And my love, you seem more distant with each passing day Why is it that my heart hurts so, knowing that I wont Be as happy as I should be? Why must change affect me in such a way To cause me to breakdown!? I cannot cry nor can I turn back to the past that, I' have left behind Such things can only destroy and cripple me severely if I thought of it now Yes, at times we've disagreed, but that never stopped us But now, I don't know if what we promised then will come to pass Why must things always need to change, when it was just Fine as it previously was? Must time take away everything that I want? Or is everything else cruel to me!? Why is it that my heart hurts so, knowing that I wont Be as happy as I should be? Why must change affect me in such a way To cause me to breakdown!? Yet... Instead of it getting better for my sake, it seems to me That I'm being spat in the face Why must I go through life with such a burden As the one that I carry on my back now!!!